Your Love Was Holding Me Back…

I admit, it was not your fault or mistake that you held me back,
It was not your problem that loving you got my life off its track!

I know, it is not an excuse that I fell apart every single time we fought,
It is not acceptable how I let you sink me in sorrow with every blame you brought…

I understand, how I was under your command, pleading to hold your hand,
I see how it was never engraved in your heart just simply written on sand!

I realize, the distance that I kept from others in order to bring you respect was lame!
Since every single time you’d find some reason to blackmail me into blame!

I hesitate, yet I insist to erase you from deep within my existence,
Since mine to you never really made any significant difference!

I forget, almost, how we were together thinking foolishly that it was my life’s master plan!
Believing that I was your girl and you definitely had to be my only man!

I hate, how every time I revisit a place of ours I feel so angry and enraged!
How my heart craved a love that was one-sided and to its emotions was jailed!

I write, in efforts to release your poison out of my system, but this time for good!
Your words no longer tingle my senses, not the way they used to or they should!


About outlived

X-dreamer, fighter and writer... Using words to unleash the pain that eats me from the inside out, day after day!
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