Might Trick Me Once… And Twice???

I have spent time fixing my hair today, gently curling every lock with my fingers, but there’s no one there to see…
I have polished my nails, French style, and chose something cute to wear; I guess I just did it for me!
I have bathed in my strawberry body spray and added a pinch of his favorite perfume, but again, he was not there…
I now finally believe that all the things he once said, every single word, never really meant that he will ever truly care…
I have stripped my soul from fear, held out my heart in my hands and reached out to touch his spirit and tried to set it free…
Yet I have realized that what I need from him, he could never ever be!
I have given destiny yet another attempt to play me and fool me around…
Another chance to raise me high above and just throw me back on the ground…
I have no more will to fight, to hold on, to give up or even let go…
Will I EVER have my faith again? I don’t think, I don’t know…

About outlived

X-dreamer, fighter and writer... Using words to unleash the pain that eats me from the inside out, day after day!
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2 Responses to Might Trick Me Once… And Twice???

  1. Anonymous says:

    i liked this one beebee … the way u describe things is awesome..

  2. zeezazoo says:

    yeah u will have ur faith again… i'm sure of that… aslan u only have faith in these things!! i don't remember u have faith in other things 😀 :Du'll always find a way to get ur faith again, and u'll always find a reason!! don't worry!!

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