Thought Number 2: I hate the fact that I never “hung around” anywhere long enough to make real friends and solid friendships, not a job, not a school, not a country…
Thought Number 3: Should I give leaving Jordan more thought? I mean are 8 months truly sufficient for me to know that I can not adapt? Moreover, would leaving mean more painful farewells and broken bonds?
Thought Number 4: Why is it that when one asks for too little he/she doesn’t get anything? While those who want so much seem to get most of it?
Thought Number 5: Have I been a good friend to those who consider me a friend? Could I have done more, been more?
Thought Number 6: Where is the thin line between jealousy and being obsessive? Who defines that line?
Thought Number 7: Every successful person learns something new every day, what have I learnt for the past few days, weeks or months? (I do not mean on the work level because as before, academics and work have always been the best I can achieve in!)
Thought Number 8: Is it true that nothing has it all? Is that why pretty girls are stupid half of the time and the other half are just simply unlucky?
Thought Number 9: When is it time to move on and just let go? I mean when does a person reach his/her true “breaking point”?
Thought Number 10: Could I ever be or will I ever be happier, more satisfied, more relaxed, and safer? Because if the answer is no then: why the struggle?
Thought Number 11: I should go to sleep but I simply can not right now!
Thought Number 12: What is each of my readers going to think or feel when they read this particular post? Is it going to annoy or upset anyone? Will someone deduce that I am really depressed or will another think I am just letting off steam?
Thought Number 13: When are we going to move to the new house? Will it bring the family closer or tear them more apart?
Thought Number 14: I really feel like a Nescafe right now but I’m scared that if I have one, combined with all those thoughts, I won’t be able to sleep for a week to come!
Thought number 15: How could some people actually act and speak as if you are not there? As if you don’t exist?
Thought Number 16: Will I be here when my six months pregnant friend comes back from Oman? Will I be there when she has her first baby?
Thought Number 17: Where will I be in two months? Surrounded by whom? Eating what? Doing what? Feeling how?
Thought Number 18: Do mistakes from the past keep haunting us till the day we die?
Thought Number 19: Do I affect anyone’s life either positively or negatively? How?
Thought Number 20: After all I have been through, why do I still have trust in people? Why do I over expect? How can I still be this sensitive?
Thought Number 21: When will the day come for me to achieve some of my dreams – my little secrets?
Thought Number 22: Is the way I’m living my life now a reason for the delay in my dreams’ execution?
Thought Number 23: I probably should stop typing now because I guess this post will be amongst the longest I have on my blog (and I know how people get bored of reading long posts!